Mia was our 3 rd child 2nd daughter she was is a very much wanted child we found out we were having mia on the 17th september 2008 we were over the moon not sure how the rest of the family were going to take the news we kept it to ourselves for a little while but it became to hard to keep from others as i was so ill with hyperemeiss like i was in both other pregnacies i had lots of sickness and headaches but that didnt stop me loving her from day one i had my 1st scan at 14 weeks there she was on the screen till this time i almost thought i was going mad but she was really there the next scan was at 21 weeks there she was again getting bigger every thing looked fine but they couldnt tell us if she was a boy or girl so the next day we had a private scan and were told we were having a baby girl we were so happy i was still being ill right up untill about 32 weeks altou i was happy to be having her i just wanted her out and to stop feeling ill me and lee couldnt agree on her name i wanted mia rose and lee wanted ruby but as you can see i got my way, then at 35 weeks 6 days i hadnt felt mia move so i went to the hospital and was put on a moniter but she woke up and was kicking like mad so they sent me home over the weekend she was moving like mad but on the tuesday she hadnt moved but i just thought she was sleeping and so did everyone else but wednesday morning the 22nd april she still hadnt moved soi phoned alice she arranged for us to go back to the hospital to have a trace, i droped mitchell and kira to school and then went to the hospital again expecting her to wake up, the midwife tried to find her heartbeat but couldnt so she called the doctor and he did a scan then came the words that no expecting parents should ever hear sorry your daughter has died my heart broke straight away i felt sick from then i dont remember much all i thought about was having to tell mitchell and kira that there baby sister had become an angel. i thought telling our family was hard but telling mitchell and kira has to be the second hardest thing i have ever had to do in my life other than walking out of the hospital without mia in her car seat, mitchell and kiras little hearts broke in to a thousand pieces when we told them all i was thinking how can life be so cruel to do this to us but to them life was just being the biggest shit what had they ever done to deserve to lose there little sister before they even got to meet her and how were we going to put them back together when all we wanted to do was crawl up and break. At 7pm that night myself lee and my mum went back to the hospital i was induced but nothing happened to till 7;20 am on the 23rd then at 7:50 am mia was born weighing 4lb 14 oz she was born with her cord tightly around her neck 3 times, she was perfect she looked like a baby sleeping i will never forget and love her until the day we can be together again.